My Case - The Journey of Souls (5) --- Letting Go (Purification)

Since I found out we are twin flame in 2019, I have learned so much about meditation, soul partnerships, spirituality, etc. in so many classes. I would say almost all my money has been spent on learning.

In the second half of 2019, I started learning about the cosmic truths. It was also around this time that I started learning about Ascension. I started taking some classes and suddenly remembering memories of my Lemurian days, and in 2020 I will begin to learn about the subconscious and hypnotherapy in earnest. The trigger was simple: my reality with him was not working.

Then, in the summer of 2020, my third eye detected something else. Suddenly I heard a voice in the back of my mind saying, "I will meet him in August. No, this was another message from the universe. It has been more than a year since I have seen him. I could really see him on my way back from going to his workplace for a reason. However, what I detected was that he had gotten married. Again, I was thrown into the bottom of the abyss, and for the next two months I have no memory of what I did or how I spent my time. But even at this time, I was still just in a state of sadness, because I did not yet know that the universe was in charge. 

 The events that happen before our eyes are actually illusions. I am the one who is attaching emotions to those events...that is the lesson of Yoshikazu Namiki, my favorite Japanese spiritual leader. I didn't know about the parallel universe, and I didn't understand what an illusion was in the first place. I didn't even understand it. Anyway, as I was dealing with the wounds of grief alone, I decided to take a hypnotherapy class.

There I again learned about the subconscious, the collective unconscious, the superconscious, and oneness. This teacher was teaching us about the subconscious from a psychological point of view, but I felt my heart chakra being greatly shaken by this "oneness" in me. At that time, I still don't know why.

The card session class, and the hypnotherapy class that specializes in the twin flame. Both of these classes I signed up for because I thought I could get certified and open my own salon. Eventually, I wanted to help other twin flame women like me who were suffering from the right and left side of the world, and I also wanted to reconnect with him...I always had this desire to reconnect with him through hypnotherapy.

He got married. But I was genuinely hoping to see him again, consoling myself that this was a common occurrence during the separation period of the twin flame.... Of course, even at this time, the cosmic truth is not fully understood.

The hypnotherapy classes lasted about six months. I was also able to practice individually with the course students and see so many of our past lives. So many! I have also come to understand that he and I were always close to each other in past lives, and that we always died or parted ways, and that this is why our souls reincarnated with the thought, "We will be together in this life." Past in Spain, past in France, past in Ireland...These countries are very familiar to me, the countries he traveled to, the countries of my fieldwork in college. And Africa, the South American continent.... We, especially him, were always crossing oceans. For his family, for his country. We both had a strong sense of patriotism and justice, and we both had past lives where we were involved in witchcraft and protesting against corrupt countries. We were always together anyway. We were elves at the creation of the earth, I created the earth and he created the sea. Whenever I looked into my past lives, I always shed tears and felt the healing and sublimation of the wounds of my past lives. From there, my psychic begins to open up.

And the healing of my childhood self (inner child), which I had been unable to release until now, also began. Unnecessary pride, old ideas, personalities that were not my true self... all were abandoned in order to return to Oneness. Of course, it is not perfect yet. But during this period, I let go of many unnecessary things. It was not only things, but also relationships, records, etc. Everything. I even threw away my bed and started to live like a minimalist.

By the way, I have not been able to eat meat since 2022. Occasionally I eat chicken meat, but when I try to cook the meat, I catch the sadness when they are butchered. Now I eat fish and beans instead of meat.

Now, it was the summer of 2021. My sense of perception comes into play again. I "suddenly" typed his name on the Internet with my automatic scribe. "Why? Am I doing this? Like a stalker..." I thought, and then I looked at Google search... and found out he had left Japan. Ah... again... we are repeating the tragedy of our past lives again, still unable to be together in this life and dying. Abandoning the role of ascension.... Again, I nodded my head.

Even at this time, I don't think I believed in the "universe's leadership." I was convinced that "such a thing may exist for others, but not for me."

Then...at the end of October 2022, I received a call from a couple living in Sydney. They were planning to have a wedding in Peru, wife's hometown, but the ceremony had been canceled several times because of COVID. The couple said, "We're going to change our wedding plans; we're going to have it in January 2023, in XX city. Will you be there?"

XX city...where he had been transferred to...! This is when I finally started to think, "Is the universe watching me?" This is the moment I began to wonder.

If I call him, will he meet me...?