Looking back and thinking (1)

What I remember very well was that when he was about to say something, he would immediately hold back. 'Oh...he is holding back...I want him to let his mind go. I want him to be 100% honest in front of me." And yet, I knew and pretended not to see it. Because in public, our relationship was tutor and client. But I always caught it. He always held himself back. No, he had crossed the world by holding himself back.

It was the same for me. 

I was a successful tutor, I think. Even as a freelancer, I have been giving lessons to many CEOs of major companies. That's because I was not very Japanese, and I handled them like a very friendly comedian. But in reality, I am not. I really like my alone time, my quiet time, and probably many of my friends don't know who I really am.

When I looked at him, it was like I was seeing myself playing the clown by holding back. He was holding back too. This is because we are twin-framed. Twin frames have different immediate problems, but the fundamental problem is the same. By the way, our mission in this life is "pioneering," but our soul's learning is "to say we really want what we want.

That is why, when I see him again this time, I want him to talk to me about everything from now on, and I want to create such a relaxing environment for him.