My Case - The Journey of Souls(6) --- Awakening

Before and after the separation period, I always prayed only for his happiness at the shrine. Even when I woke up in the morning, I prayed for his happiness. 

And I have faced my negativity and ego a lot.

We were again able to see each other again. In COVID, when society was being shaken up by the pandemic. Neither he nor I were infected. Moreover, for some reason my income was better than usual at this time, and I quickly accumulated enough money to pay for the trip. I couldn't get a clean hotel, but it seemed to be close to the area where he lived.

But he gave me the evil eye. And he just kept me away. He didn't want to listen to me. He was afraid of me carrying too much love. He was afraid that I might have brought COVID from Japan, and he was afraid that I might infect him. He didn't want his life to be changed by me.

Yes, we were able to meet again, but then he told me something like never to contact him again. I don't think he wanted me to fly all the way over to see a married man, even if it was generally considered, ethically speaking, to be a good idea. I was the only one dancing around.

The airfare was expensive and the whole trip was beyond my budget. Even so, my heart was shattered at the thought of just being able to see him for an hour.

But he didn't look happy at all, neither when he got married nor this time. In fact, he looked very tired. Yes, he really did not look happy.

After all, it was not yet the right time for us. I had not yet fully understood the truth of the universe. I had not yet awakened. I thought I loved him unconditionally. But in the end, I was asking him to look at me. It was ego. After all, I had not yet integrated myself. Integration of masculinity and femininity, positive and negative. And integration into oneness with the universe. I'm not there yet...

Nevertheless, since I started supporting twin flames on SNS, I had been receiving requests for sessions from many suffering twin flame women who relied on me to help them.

What I can do now is not with him. No matter how much I love him, I cannot control him. It's his free will. Even if he does not eventually come back, I have already moved on to the path of awakening, and I will probably end my relationship with him in this lifetime. But I guess the universe will take care of that too.

What I can do for him now is to further spread light to people as a healer. And to raise my own vibration. If I raise my vibration, he will also be energized because we are one soul. And he will remember his soul's wish and mission. What I can do now is just to pray for his happiness as I have always done. Just send him love. It is not a grudge, "love me," but just send him blessing love.

I guess we are not quite there yet.... To be honest, sometimes I sigh.

Little by little, the "real" twinflames around me are starting to get married and co-create after their reunion...the winter solstice of 2021 brought a big dimensional change and so did that time last year...2023 is a very fast changing year and many are returning to "their true nature" again.... So, lies will be quickly discovered and scandals will be quickly discovered in 2023 and beyond. And if we walk "in our true nature" with this light flow, we can shift more and more into the world we desire.

That's how some of my twin flame friends are getting married or starting businesses together. It's strange, and the "real" Twin Flame, no matter how many obstacles there are in reality, the universe is always in charge and they always end up together in the end. But that is when they are both ready. Perhaps it is not he who is not ready, but me? I am still facing myself and working as a lightworker.